We always think about the Doctor being the selfish one in this relationship because we’ve seen it backwards but in reality, it was River. She knew exactly how much he would love her. She knew how much they would mean to each other, and yet she still dies for him. Leaving him to live on with her and without her.
How does one keep living knowing that the best part of you is already gone? You don’t. That’s why her Doctor made a screwdriver and saved her in the Library. She would always be there to him.
You know what the true insanity of their relationship is? That in dying to save his younger self, she scarified the rest of him. And the selfish madman is ok with that, as long as her past gets to haunt him.
Jesus, this is really annoying me!!! At one point she couldn’t stop talking to me and now a few weeks later she doesn’t even text me back…..This is driving me insane!!! I can’t believe I actually fell for this girl for nothing :(